weekly trips to Subterranean Books, so much so that I think I have made myself a regular. While buying
books does drain a significant amount of my meager summer savings, I insist on purchasing new copies of
my books so I can cultivate my own personal library. I am an amateur librarian, frequently loaning books out
to my friends in a revolving door fashion. I tailor my recommendations to my friends’ tastes, trading The
Secret History for Sweet Days of Discipline, and supplying my most recently acquired obsession, Haruki
Murakami, to my friend who does not own his books. My book collection is neither decor nor trophies. It is
a growing, living organism: a literary garden that I tend to and water carefully. For they are my old
companions after all, and I intend on treating them kindly.
Slowly, I will discover new literary acquaintances and add them to my personal library. Already this
year, I have revisited my old haunts. As I write this, I am in the midst of rereading The House of Mirth, which
continues to endear me to Edith Wharton. I also challenged myself to read Kazuo Ishiguro’s most enigmatic
and twisted novel, The Unconsoled. It struck me while I was reading it that it was not so long ago, four years in
fact, that I found solace in the world that Ishiguro constructed for Kathy, Tommy, and Ruth. Despite my
voracious reading habits, I have a seemingly never-ending list of books to read, and soon I will have to pile
my books on the floor as I will have no more room for them. But I will carry on in this way, befriending and
collecting literary companions, for I know that in my mind they are with me all the time. I’ve invited George
“Sticky” Washington, Kathy, Lily Bart, Owen Meany, and Count Rostov to accompany me, and we are all
sitting together round a little table, conversing over warm cups of tea. They may be fictional, nothing but
pages bound together, but they brought companionship in the most isolated of moments, and thawed my
seemingly perpetual loneliness. My books did not always quell my fears, but they gave me the strength to
face them. I carry this strange, eclectic traveling circus of a library with me everywhere I go, because I am
indebted to them. They have cared for me, and I care for them now in return by making a home for them in
my budding personal library. We look after one another, and we always will.