This
problematic section of King’s biography merits quoting at some length:
Sometime in the spring of 1972—I can’t remember exactly when or where it
happened—Vicki Berner, who was still playing the circuit then, rushed up to me with a
copy of Atlas Shrugged and said, “You’ve got to read this. You’re Dagny Taggard.
You’re just like her.”
In the next few months I read the book and thought about it a lot, and during those
days out by the tree stump at Stinson Beach I realized that Vicki had been exactly right;
that in a lot of ways I really was like Dagny Taggart. That one book told me a lot about
why I was the way I was, and why other people reacted to me, sometimes pretty strongly,
the way they did. […]
It made me see how my love of tennis and what I guess you might call my
fanatical desire to see the women’s circuit make a go of it worked both ways. It kept me
going when I’d maybe rather have been taking a week off or at least getting a good eight
hours’ sleep, but it also made me vulnerable to criticism. If I hadn’t really cared about
what I was doing, then people could have said anything they wanted about me and it
would have just rolled off my back. No sweat. But I did care, a lot, and that’s why I
didn’t understand and couldn’t accept all the bad feedback I was getting. I had the guilts
[sic] sometimes because I wasn’t strong enough to realize that I was doing the right thing.
Instead, I found myself thinking, “Maybe I’m not right about this or that after all.” And
confusion was making me learn to hate something I really did love.
I decided, over a long period of time, to become selfish. That’s an awkward word,
because all my life I’d been taught to be altruistic, to give unto others and all that. But
what is altruism? It comes down to the old question: Is the philanthropist who gives ten
million to some charity acting out of true altruism or out of self-interest? Had I gotten
involved in all those hassles just “for the good of the game” or because that’s really what
gave me, Billie Jean King, the most pleasure and satisfaction? The answer, of course, was
both—it wasn’t a question of either-or—but understanding that I didn’t have to feel
guilty about my motives, despite what other people said, made things a whole lot easier
for me. […]
I found I was able to stop having to justify the money I made. People said I was
becoming mercenary, and that used to bother me. But why? Money sure wasn’t the end
of the rainbow and I’d never felt it was my only motive for playing, but I also felt that I
earned everything I made, and that I deserved what I got. And it hadn’t come easy, either.
I’d worked my fanny off for every cent.
I decided I was responsible to myself first, and to no one else.